Eternia

I was raised to be tough....to not take anything from anyone. It’s a lonely way to walk through this world.I spent my whole life trying to impress you. Trying to please you. All it did was make me hate you. Hate myself. And when I finally found someone who loved me - who I thought I could love back it made me hurt them. Hurt them so they could never unhurt. I tore that love a part and myself a part with it. I have wanted to die because I can not be who I wanted to be. Because, I can not be who you wanted me to be. But, I couldn’t die anymore than I could live. I’m tired of being here in this place that feels like no where. Tired of caring what people think about me. I’m tired of being afraid. I’ve met someone who makes me want to breathe in this world again. And, I will not hold my breath a second longer. None of these lies I’ve told have made me stronger. None of the secrets I kept made me happier. So, I’m gonna try something else now. I’m gonna try telling the truth. My truth.